The colors fade to black and white
I prefer alone
peace and quiet
Unsure of what became of my smile
for i haven't seen it in quiet awhile
i love unconditional and deep
not the quitting kind
but never have i been loved the same
to my heart a man has not been kind
as i hit my knees with tears filling my hazel eyes
i prayed please send me a man who tries
to make me never lose my smile
one who appreciates that i go the extra mile
i don't need money or material possessions
just someone who makes loving me his obsession
one who stands in front but only to guide me
to protect me
not to lead me nor berate me
i cried and prayed for the man of my dreams to come true
dear lord to love me as i need him to
i was weak and broken and i hear the lord say
get up my child he will come one day
please be patient for your kind heart will see
it will be paid back for how you have loved me
i found my strength again and dusted off my knees and looked up as i dried my tears and say thankyou for your ear
i know he exists i've always known he is near
and one day will come and i will cry no more tears
just as the promise was told
i sent a message to a friend of old
we chatted and never thought much
of befriending one another again
reunited as the friends we once were
and talked of all we had suffered and endured
then he insisted we go for a drive
that i should get out for a short time
we rode for miles and talked the whole way
there was not a moment we didn't smile or laugh that day
as we walked that evening by the water
i couldn't help but wonder
what was the feeling i had felt
wanting him to just take my hand
why would i think that
why would it cross my mind
with things i had been through time after time
denna what a silly stupid girl you are to want to go through the heart being scarred
again?
silly girl are you sure
to have a man once again treat you as though your
nothing and don't matter to leave you alone
bruised and broken doesn't refer only to bones
remember the pain you have been through and don't be the stupid romantic you are
hush the voice of reason in my mind
i prayed for him and i am unsure how i know this time but he's the one i been waiting for my whole life
the one who needs me as much as i need him this time it's right
i played all the possible taboo through my head and the answer i got was said
he is not the same and i know this to be true that he don't lie and is a gentle soul and would not put his hands on you
i fought the urge to hold his hand or look in his eyes and it happened anyway to my surprise
our hands met together at the same time and when i glanced over at him his eyes met mine
i shivered and my heart beat fast
and my tummy quivered
as we walked holding hands that day by the river
today my life is perfect never mistake
when the lord says he will send your heart to you he will not forsake
i'm finally whole and all the love songs make sense
now that i have him in my life my heart has been rinsed
of all the battered bruises and voids left open like a door
with one touch i knew this was the love that i had prayed for
he is gentle and kind but strong like a soldier
loving me kind, fighting for my love
he makes me smile and nourishes my soul and everyday my love for him grows
bigger and better and will be bigger than life
one day i will be honored to be his wife
i said never again but today i must say
i will wear his name with honor until the day
i am laid to rest and leave this world
i just hope i love him enough and he feels adored
to know what he has done and the new life he breathed within me
the heart he rebuilt and how he made me love living again
how he took my broken soul and restored my faith in men
he loves me like no other has ever in my time
i promised him i may not love him the rest of his life
but i will love him the rest of mine
