Like I Did Today

I've never felt heartache 

Like I felt today
While looking at my little girls as they were told
Their daddy had gone away
Not for the moment 

       But gone to stay
       Gone to heaven to work the big lights
        In the sky
      To be the scenic designer for the
        Lord forever by and by

I've never felt heartache
Like I felt today
Looking at my daddy
As his mother slipped away
I wanted to take the pain
From him and consume it for my own
But I could do nothing more for him

        Other than stay strong

Ive never felt heartache
Like I did today
When looking at my brothers face
As he laid his baby girl
In her final resting place
My heart was heavy but there was nothing I could do or say
Nothing to take his  pain away........

I've never felt heartache like I did today
As my mothers face was stoic and sad
As she laid to rest, her best friend, her dad
I could tell although I was only a mere 8 years old
My mother I once knew
Was now gone
A piece of her died along with grandpa too
I always tried to remind her, in some ways
I am here for you
But too young to be much comfort
Or help ease her pain
My heart broke for her again and again

I've never felt heartache
Like I did today
When he told me
He didn't feel the same
My best friend , love of my life
No longer wanted me
As his wife
I thought this too shall pass as all my troubles had
Just like the last
But the hurt was a feeling I've never felt before
As I turned to walk out  the door
He did not follow me
Or ask me to stay
I suffered my first broken heart that day

I've never felt heartache
Like I felt today
When I looked at my doctor as he told me of my fate
I have to stay strong
Just as I always have
Be strong
To help my mother along
But ironically my plan suddenly changed
As I was told that she and I suffer from the same
I am a Phoenix, a Titan they say
But I felt helpless and defeated on that day
He does not give us more than we can take
But lord I cannot take anymore weight
I want some of  my burden to be lifted from my being
No more tradgedy I am pleading
I know I am strong
But I'm growing tired and weary
And the burdens become a struggle upon my shoulders
I used to move mountains
Now only boulders


Denna Dionne

Right There In That Time

Her body was healthy, solid
As any woman could be
That was not the problem you see

It was a disease that stole her mind
Erasing her memory and stopped life
Right there in that time

She recognized only faces
of love so strong
Nothing could rob her of that love which
she had felt for so long

The look in her eyes each time I saw her face
Said "I am lost and alone and I do not know this place"
"I am feeble and weak and want to go home
But I know nothing but these people that I cannot leave alone"

The look in her eyes
when she was in fear merely from me trying to care for her
brought me to tears

But all my hurt and pain
as if her entire world was filled with rain
disappeared in an instant
when that shine in her eyes appeared
when a certain man appeared in it

Her love
Her heart
Would come in the room
 and her eyes lit up
Everytime she heard that familiar sound of his voice
as he would say what had quiet a ring to it
Howdy Doody Judy
There are no words I can write to prove it

It was as though her whole face became aglow
Her heart filled with a kind of love
that most of us will never know

Her feeble body suddenly became strong as ten men
and her eyes said
That she knew the sound
so familiar in her head
It was then and I knew only then
True love existed in that place
Right there in that time

Ther world stood still to her
with his face and touch
The love that I witnessed made me miss my love
so much

When in the world where she had no recollection
of much at all
But when her family came in
That was all brought to a halt
almost as if the terrible curse was nonexistant
the love was too strong for it to consume her mind
Right there in that time

I witnessed a feeble, emaciated body
and a mind that was gone
That had been confused and scared
for so so long

But in that instant
Her love popped in the room
The confusion and fear stopped
with the mere sight and sound of her groom

It broke my heart to have to ease her into my every visit
each and every day
But my compassion turned to comfort every time
merely for the sake
That I could say his name
And peace came upon her face
And it was as if love filled the entire place

He loved her so deep and so strong
That the simple fact that she recalled
Showed me that true love and an open heart
could not be wrong

Meeting her and the chance to love her
taught me much in my own life to date
That pride and a closed heart
Is one of hate
One of lonliness and a destined fate
to never experience the fairy tale
I knew could be true
And for the lesson from a woman without knowledge of teaching me
I say
Thank you
Thankyou for showing me it was okay to reclaim love that was always mine
Right there in that time

Her mind was more erased over the months and the days
But her love and heart always stayed

She walks with angels
and her mind is now clear
The thought of her finally reclaiming all the time and memories
again brings me to tears
But tears of joy and warmth
that her thoughts are rekindled
and she smiles so kind
And she is remembering every detail
Right there in that time

I now have learned to love
like never before
And open up that once closed door
The door to my heart
Now that I am free
AGAIN I want to thank that little cutie
And as her love would say
Howdy Doody Judy

She waits there on the streets of gold
With ALL her memories far and old
But the one thing that I admired most
The memories that are so fine
was how she NEVER forgot the love
There in that time

Smile that wonderful smile
Let those eyes sparkle and dance
And now that your memories are yours again
Look forward to one day having that chance
To greet your love
at Heaven's door
And you will have enternity to share memories galore

Oh how wonderful it will be
Eternity with him in it
Right there,
In that minute


For Judy and Johnny Watson
Former hospice patient but friends
Victim of Alzhiemers